Day by day

Some days are easier than others. I've experienced a lot of pain from the last few months of my junior year until right now, the middle of my senior year. Most of that pain has stemmed from one man. I know the only thing that keeps me going sometimes is my faith in God and his amazing unconditional love. That love is what gets me through when the days become tough. 

I sometimes get in this mood where I fell I can't take much more. It seems like every move I make is wrong. You know when you get so tired of everything that you begin to break? That's how I have felt. Like I stated in previous post I'm not one to let others in. I'd rather keep my problems and pain to myself. That leads to days like today and yesterday. Where it all becomes to much and I begin to hit that point of breaking down. 

Today I was sitting in Journalism class just staring at the screen. I had my headphones on but no music playing. The picture on the screen was the page for S.W.A.G in our yearbook, that I am designing. I had my bible out next to me looking up scripture to include on the page. I was sitting in the corner alone and that gave me to much room to think. I sat there staring at the screen and I could feel tears rushing to my eyes. I had to do something to stop them, because I knew once they started that I wouldn't be able to stop them. Quickly I just glance at a scripture that was open in my bible that I had highlighted. I honestly couldn't tell you what the verse said all I know is that I instantly felt peace when I read it. Its like God knew that I was on the verge of a breakdown and He did something about it.

That's the unconditional love that keeps me going. That even in my weakest times God shows me his strength and gives me little moment of peace. That little moment is what I needed to get me through the day. The rest of the day was still a little tough, but that moment of clarity, that moment of hope, peace, love was what got me through. That, I felt, was God showing me that everything was going to be okay. That was God showing his unconditional love and his strength. 

I will have days when I feel lost or hopeless. When I feel like every move I make, breath I take is wrong. We all have days like that. During those days we need to look for God's little reassurances. He felt that I was on the edge of an emotional breakdown, and He pulled me back in. That's what God does. He takes the broken, the lost, the hungry, and draws them near.

All I can do is take life day by day and let God work in me and through me. He has bestowed on me many wonderful blessings. He has given me that unconditional love that I craved. He gives me strength when I am at my weakest. He gives me power and might to face another day. 

Stay Strong everyone! God is on our side and will get us through the storm! Just believe and look for His blessings during your most troubling times. 

God bless <3 

Love,

Heaven Slaughter