That impatient nature that I have harms me during times of trouble. For those of you keeping up with this blog this, can probably tell that I haven't had the best of weeks. That impatient nature started to grow into anger and wrath and I started to not feel like myself. I knew something had to change. I was praying for a change, I prayed for the pain to end. I prayed all these things and I anticipated an answer right away. I preach to the kids at S.W.A.G how God works things out in His own time not in ours. I had to keep reflecting on that this week. When I finally took a breath and let God work I found my prayers answered.
Today was not the best day, I was frustrated and angry and to be completely honest I had no idea why. Maybe it was the jokes and comments I was getting from others all week. Maybe it was that I was stressed about collage classes starting up. Maybe it was that I wasn't giving God full control. Whatever the cause I was beginning to feel like a different person. The person I'm not proud of, the one who made harmful mistakes to herself as well as other. I was becoming the past version of myself that I feared. That's when I gave it to God and said "here I cant do it anymore. If I continue trying to do it myself I will fail." and God answered that cry.
I had no intentions on attending youth group last night. I was frustrated and upset. I had a college meeting that same evening. I don't know I came up with many excuses as to why I did not want to attend. All were wrong reasons. Then my best friend texted me asking if she could go to youth group at my church with me that night. I thought for a few seconds and instantly said yes. Living in different towns and going to different schools we don't get to see one another as often as we would like. So any chance to hang out I will take.
At that time I did not know that God was using Dallas to be a blessing to me that day, and to answer my prayers. Going to church that night eased me. It brought me peace and lifted my hope once again. We studied Romans 12 and one verse stuck out to me more then any other.
Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, and faithful in prayer.
Romans 12:12
When our youth pastor said that verse I nearly began to cry. I bowed my head and said thank you. I felt peace, happiness, hope, and love all over again. WOW.... I was speechless and to be honest I still am. I am in awe of God and his ability to instantaneously bring me peace.
Later that night I realized that I was not the only one God touched through that verse and through church yesterday night. God has also brought my best friend that hope that I didn't even know she needed. I got so caught up in my own problems that I did not realize the struggles my bestie was going through. That night talking to her it felt good to get some things off my chest and once again God shines through our friendship.
God knows what we need to bring us ease and peace. He knew that my best friend is the one I needed to help me and to calm me. He worked through her to help me. He is amazing in that way.
Today was so amazing <3 I have not had a day like today in a long time. It's like no matter what people did or said to me I smiled. I showed them that God will answer my prayers and bring me the hope I need. I showed that He is in me and I will not fall.
Whenever you are feeling down let Gods blessing reach you. Don't try to handle things on your own. If you do you will only grow bitter and angry. God does answer prayers we just have to wait for His time. He knows what you need to restore that joy and hope and He will bring it to you when you let go and let God. Do not be afraid to cry out to God. He already knows what is going on in your life and He will answer prayers. Believe and have faith. Never lose that hope that gets you through the day. Lean on God!
God bless <3
Love,
Heaven April
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